Most parents know, after having their own kids home from school during summer, that summer vacation is just too long. It's the time of the year when your attitude changes from "let's go picnic!" to "I can have your vocal cords removed kids!" in a period of 6 weeks.
Summer vacation used to be endless and amazing. I'd go to the bathroom in freedom, sleep in, stay up, and would also hate going back to work.
Then I got kids of my own. What was I thinking? My job is trying to keep a big group of mini monsters from yelling and testing out how hard a ruler can be thrown before it breaks. My vacation, now I have kids, is the SAME! There's no difference between 2 kids or 30. And when they're babies they can't even be alone for 5 minutes or wipe their own poop.
Well, there is a slight difference. With my kids, at a certain point, I don't mind if they throw their hard plastic toys around like it's the snow from Frozen. Even if I do mind, during vacations I often decide not to act on it. That's what it does to you. Six weeks of 'I'm bored', 'I'm hungry' and 'mom, did you know that you can not remove peanut butter from the couch by sucking it out?'
Still, I didn't want to go back to work. I was tired. I had so much stuff that I felt I had to do, or still enjoy. I was just not ready. I wanted my hippie kids to stay up late and sleep in. Because I love my hippie kids. And the growth they go through is amazing to see. Have you noticed, how they somehow take huge steps during summer? They pick up so much when they are NOT in school. They grow as people, not just get their minds filled with facts, but with big ideas. It's what we are made for. We shouldn't have to sit in a classroom all day. We need to also just live life. As it is. My sister has this beautiful house in the country, and I often think about what it would be like to live there. Homeschool. Learn them more about nature, less about what time it is. I feel sad thinking we don't do this enough. Instead we show them the rat race that life can be, and they will probably join it. It's not what I want. But the line between, what I want and what I think is also good for them, is thin. Society can put things in a different perspective.
Even though I love summer vacation, to give your kids the freedom to discover what their rhythm is and what they like doing with their free time, this is only a fleeing moment. And then, it's back to school. (Ok, I also love saying "yeah go ahead, watch some Netflix, and could you pass me that bottle and crackers baby?")
So here I am, back to work, back to school, a bunch of kids from 9 to 12 years old that are waiting for me to make them feel welcome again. My kids are ready to go back sitting at a desk. And honestly? It is good. This is also good. Being around other people, organizing, getting things done. I love it too. And at least these kids at school pretend to listen, and I happen to have a great set this year. For my own kids, let their teacher take care of that. I apologize for destroying all you have taught them last school year. I will get you some wine for your birthday. And next vacation, I will do it all over again.